November of 2009 we found out my dad was dying from psoriasis of the liver. In December we had his funeral and two days later found out my mom had AML Leukemia. She spent Christmas, New Years, her 50th birthday, and my sister's 17th birthday in the hospital. She was out in time for my 21st birthday and for the past year she's been in remission. Yesterday we found out it's back. This time she will be going for one high dose of chemo and then to Emory for a bone marrow transplant.
In a way the past year has made me grow up a lot. I didn't have a whole lot of choice but I managed to keep myself sane while taking care of my sister, grandma, myself, and taking care of my mom. My sister decided to run from things and withdrew from family. She got in some trouble and made my mom worry twice the normal amount. This time sister will be living with me and my fiance again while mom is gone and we've agreed to some rules. HOPEFULLY this will work out. I've tried to explain to her how important it is that she's there for all of us and that even when she's out running away from her problems... they're still here waiting on her. It's time to face things head on! It's also made me realize what's important and what's trivial. I've withdrawn from some of my friends because even though they know what I'm going through they still complain about the little stuff and it makes me angry. Angry might not be the best word. It just bothers me that some of my friends complain about every little things. For instance; I have a friend who bitches about every little thing, nothing is ever good enough and every time we talk it's about HER drama. She's known for three weeks what's going on with my mom and has not once asked me how I'm doing or how my mom is doing. She's had plenty of time to complain about her dog, boyfriend, brother, my ex, his new girlfriend, etc. but hadn't once considered my feelings. She text me the other day complaining that she had a flat tire and our neighbor told her he would change it AFTER it stopped raining. She didn't have to be at work or anything, she just wanted her tire changed right then and there regardless of the heavy rain. She expected him to get outside in the rain and do it for her and was mad when he didn't want to do it right then. (This is our neighbor, not her boyfriend) By the tenth text about how sucky everyone is I got tired of listening to her complain and simple told her that if a flat tire was the worst thing that happened to her that day then she was doing alright.
Okay, enough ranting. I shouldn't expect people to change or feel the same way I do about things but I do wish people wouldn't take things for granted and would actually slow down and thing about what's really important and what's not. Everything happens for a reason, even if you can't see the reason right away.
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