"sitting, waiting, wishing..."

I'm not sure if I've mentioned the fact that I work with my mom at my day job. I love that only a few offices separate us and i've grown very fond of going to lunch together and her being right down the hall when I need a laugh or a hug.
This morning mom is at the doctors office getting blood work done so they can start the search for a bone marrow match. It's killing me to not be there with her and all I can think about lately is what life will be like once she goes into the hospital. She'll go to Savannah first, which is a 40 minute drive from here, so I'll be able to go visit with her after work and on the weekends. After Savannah she will go to Emory in Atlanta and I'm dreading it already. I get stressed driving in heavy traffic and from what I understand Atlanta is unreal. I'm not sure how I'll make the trip without a nervous breakdown but I'll be damned if I don't try.

I text my ex the other day to tell him about my mom and his only response was "sorry, hope she's okay". I got my feelings hurt a little because he has been one of my best friends for the past nine years, despite the fact that I'm now engaged. He was awesome last time mom was sick and made the whole deal easier on me just by being there for me to talk to when I needed a friend. I've spent six years with my fiance and he totally understands that I want my ex to be only my friend. He's cool with it but my ex's new girlfriend is not cool with it at all. They met last year at the bar and she went home with him and just never left. She was sleeping at his house for two weeks before she even broke up with her boyfriend at the time. At first she sent me messages saying how she didn't mind my ex being my friend and how it would be insecure of her to think he would do her wrong. I assured her that I wouldn't jeopardize my relationship nor hers. Now, she hates my guts and has my ex by the backbone. They both speak to my fiance when they see him but as soon as I arrive they stop talking to either of us. I don't expect to go on double dates or have sleepovers with the girl but It would have been nice of my ex to at least explain that we're friends. He is 26 and she is 19 and she has turned him into a complete tool. I guess some people let jealousy ruin them.

Praying that everything goes well with my mom!